Thursday, October 14, 2010

gone...like really, gone

where have i been?  well, you asked.

it's been one of those "seasons" in life here lately.  i'm bogged down with so many "to do's" and kiddos and softball and photography and working out and friends getting sick and life's struggles...you must know what i'm talking about.  surely i'm not the only one.
i look back at the end of the day and i see a flurry of activity...i see my kids fed, my smiling husband, my messy house, the unwashed laundry and the dishes stacked to the ceiling in the sink and i think, "what did i accomplish?".  i mean, i did something today, right?!

i have this thing that constantly gets in the way...it's called ME.  and sometimes i even refer to it as MY LIFE.  it plain gets in the way of what's real.  what's important.  what's good.

i get overwhelmed with the always low balance of the checking account.  i get ticked off that my friend out of nowhere has a 8 1/2 hour surgery for cancer and she has a 3 and 1 year old that just have no idea and a husband who is trying to take it all in and on. i see myself and think, where am i going wrong.

i know this is kinda a brain dump, but i just was thinking {and i do mean "JUST" was thinking}, i can not be the only one.  i mean, my life is pretty good.  i want water...i go the sink.  i need bread...i go to the store.  my kids get sick...i go to the doctor.
so why is it that life just gets in the way? i think it's because we forget what's first.  what's most important...i mean, this whole "doing it on your own" crap the world feeds us is, well...crap!  we aren't meant to do this alone.

i love jesus...i mean, i serve him in so many ways.  i teach a girls bible study, i lead a college small group, i preach to junior high and high school kids at church, i am a leader of student impact and i make a difference.  i know that.  i spread the love and the gospel of jesus christ.

but ME gets in the way.  why?  well, because when i don't continuously seek HIM first and HIS kingdom, it just doesn't work out.  i mean, the bible tells me that clearly in matthew 6.  its says this...

"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 

Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?

 "And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 
If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?

So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 

{wait for it...because here it comes baby}

But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."
matthew 6:25-34.


so, i guess i'm dumping a little here to remind myself that in all that i do...there's really only one thing that really matters.  i can be a great mom.  i can cook great meals.  i can lead my children.  i can teach God's word.  i can be a humble wife.  i can be a valued friend.
but none of it matters if if i don't seek HIS kingdom {not mine} and HIS righteousness FIRST {not even second or as an afterthought}.  first.  because when i don't, i make me my faith.  i make me my religion.  i make me my idol.  and well, that's no stinking good at all.

so i'm off to not worry about tomorrow and seek...seek...seek.

and that's where i've been.  gone.  like, really gone.  aren't you glad you asked? 

Wednesday, October 06, 2010

giggle bunny

sofia is in this giggle bunny phase...where she loves to be tickled and that leads to contagious giggles and grins.

location of the tickle-fest is never an issue...i mean, tickling is for everywhere. even on the driveway...
{{and wow, do i look good or what?}}

but the result is always the same...
uber cuteness all around!

hanging at 5 minutes for mom.

Tuesday, October 05, 2010

parades and all

being a kid is awesome bc even when the parade in your home town for homecoming is totally lame, you think it's perfect...

why?  bc you are with your friends...

they throw candy...free candy!!!

and when else do you get to scream and run around begging for people to give you a hat?

why not?  and in the end...it's still fun bc it's YOUR hometown and that's what makes it fun.

Monday, October 04, 2010

not me monday

a few things me and the fam DID NOT do this week...

hubs DID NOT get a special little souvenir from our france trip...it was NOT a 50euro speeding ticket for 117 in a 100!

sofia DID NOT decide to help mop...she DID NOT make it into the hallway before i DID NOT figure out that the water on the mop was from the toilet.  our floors have NOT ever been mopped faster!

i DID NOT workout in the rain outside for my saturday boot camp for over an hour.  i DO NOT loathe being soaked in the rain.  and it was NOT only 50 some odd degrees either.

brooke was NOT telling me and brit {her bmom} a story on friday whilst in the middle she DID NOT scream "squirrel" and point and then continue right on.  it DID NOT prove to us that in fact she is NOT the dog from UP! in real life!

jada was NOT so tired from us playing before preschool that she DID NOT fall asleep on the 5 minute ride in the car TO preschool.

i DID NOT have an epic alarm failure on wednesday morn for my fav thing...student impact...i DID NOT wake up when there was 10 minutes left.  i DID NOT catch all kinds of slack from all the students.

the hot tub cover DID NOT come in after much anticipation.  we have NOT enjoyed the awesomeness of the hot tub almost every night since!!!  i am NOT still flipping out that java ate a hole in the cover that has successfully cost us $350!!!

hubs and i DID NOT get an espresso maker to enjoy doubles at home.  we have NOT been having espresso after dinner each night...and we have NOT been loving it!

brooke DID NOT ask me how me and hubs chose her to adopt this week.  when i told her the story she DID NOT say "well that's nice. where are we eating?"

while looking for shoes at the second hand store, sofia DID NOT pull out a sparkly red pair of princess looking shoes and scream, "oh my gosh! these are mickey's girlfriend's!  you know, minnie mouse's shoes!"  we DID NOT buy the shoes for $3!

sofia is NOT in a new "sing as loud as you can" phase.  when hubs asked her to quiet down a little, she DID NOT say, "dad, i singing to jesus. it's suppose to be loud."  hubs DID NOT decide she was right and let her sing her heart out.


Friday, October 01, 2010

no school day...

the non-high school kiddos got wednesday off this week for teacher conferences...no school means kiddos whining around about not having anything to do and fighting over the tv and who can go where.

enter my friend, stacy!!  she's awesome at little kid stuff...and the kids love it too.
so we all headed over to a park close-by where they have an active archeological dig and tons of trails.  


everywhere we walked, we were asking the girls if they could find stuff from the indians...and boy, did the creativity fly!!! limbs became canoe paddles, shells became food dishes, and the kiddos started really getting into it!


i'm not much of a history buff, but there is a ton of indian artifacts and they have uncovered saber tooth tiger teeth and wooly mammoth horns, which is pretty cool.

proving that kids are like their parents, jada's one question of the day after looking at the archeological finds....

"why would these indians break all their pretty stuff up and bury it in the ground. it just makes no sense."
yep...we learned a lot.  :)