where have i been? well, you asked. it's been one of those "seasons" in life here lately. i'm bogged down with so many "to do's" and kiddos and softball and photography and working out and friends getting sick and life's struggles...you must know what i'm talking about. surely i'm not the only one. i look back at the end of the day and i see a flurry of activity...i see my kids fed, my smiling husband, my messy house, the unwashed laundry and the dishes stacked to the ceiling in the sink and i think, "what did i accomplish?". i mean, i did something today, right?! i have this thing that constantly gets in the way...it's called ME. and sometimes i even refer to it as MY LIFE. it plain gets in the way of what's real. what's important. what's good. i get overwhelmed with the always low balance of the checking account. i get ticked off that my friend out of nowhere has a 8 1/2 hour surgery for cancer and she